Starvation and Confusion (Part Three, Chapter One)

When I was first placed in the jail along with proletariat prisoners and other Party prisoners, I felt uncomfortable and worried. But most of all I was fearful. I was not scared of the rough prisoners around me, but instead of what would happen to me soon to come. I knew there would be terrible pain and horrible methods of torture awaiting me in the following days. When I was moved into another cell, I was racked by a terrible starvation that gnawed at me for what seemed like many days. When I encountered Ampleforth in the cell, I was surprised, but when Parsons was put in the cell, I was thoroughly shocked. I did not think that he would ever be brought into the Ministry of Love. After that, when many different prisoners arrived, I sat silently and did not say anything. I was frightened at the harsh punishment that a chinless prisoner received for trying to give a piece of read to another starving man. When the guards came to take the starving man away to someplace called Room 101, he screamed and protested with all his might, but he was still taken there. I am still confused about what is in Room 101 exactly, and I am afraid to know. Finally, I was alone again. Then O'Brien entered the room with a guard carrying a truncheon. I was amazed that O'Brien was here too, but I could not understand why. Then the guard hit me on the elbow with the truncheon. I had thought about whether I would be willing to increase physical pain to save Julia. I had decided that I could not do it. The pain was unbearable. It was not worth it to increase my pain for Julia's sake. All I could do was beg for mercy and hope my torturers would stop.